2011: How it played out

Highlight reel:

 December 2010:  Recovering from extreme melodramatic downward spiral/ birthday/ perceived loss culminating in bridge-incident and subsequent scars.  Eminem album.  Die Antwoord.  The Land Rover 109s.   Confusion.   Faulkner/ Portis.


 December 22nd, 2010 : HAPPY NEW YEAR!   Celebrated, alone, early.    The following week spent with a cat, otherwise alone, in my front office under blankets, watching movies.  This marked the beginning of a stretch of clean living/sobriety.  

  December 30th(?)  - Airport collection.   Surprised at positive attitude of collectee.   Some catching up ensued.  Mutual mentionings of new era beginning.

  January 4th(?) -  Saw 'True Grit' at the local movie theater.  Was terrific.   The conversation that followed this viewing was even better.   Feelings revealed, explanations provided,  reciprocity admitted, I felt free to move on, finally.   I was told I did not need to move on.   This night marked the ushering in of a new way of thinking around here, notable features being I was not being unrealistic or deluded.  I become convinced 2011 is, INDEED, going to be amazing.


   The following weeks:   Characterized by a marked increase in writing,  regular gym visits, no drinking, an extreme feeling of optimism (married to a new anxiety that this may all sour easily - it feels almost too good to be true), lots of time spent  walking, talking, eating, making plans.

    Valentine's Day:    It mattered.    Sort of.   Earrings.  Removal of existing earrings.

  More weeks pass.  944 job.   Citroen wagon job(s).  Reappearance of friend from distant past, who becomes central player in this world/story.   Feeling good, feeling lucky.  Feeling exposed, feeling a little crazy.